Why ?

Why I am doing this.
Many people have asked me this question so I will try to give the most honest responce....to look better. Most of my life I thought my nose was too big, but it never really bothered me enough to consider changing it.
I remember when I was about 9 years old a lifeguard told me I looked like Barbra Streisand. I took this as a compliment coming from a georgous lifeguard, and from then on always accepted this comment (which i get weekly to this day) as a compliment. Although I did get teased a little bit in school about my nose. Mosltly by my own brother. The comments did sting and still leave a bad taste in my mouth when I think about how it made me feel. I think it attribiuted to a lack of self asteem. Over all though I thought that I was pretty cute, and did not need to change my face.

At that age (pre teen years) I was somewhat ashamed of my heritage. I am Jewish and went to a very W.A.S.P.y school. My nose made my jewish nose made it even harder to fit in. Luckily I have matured, and am now very proud of my religion.

In High school a few friends got nose jobs. Part of me was jealous, but the other side of me looked down on them for being so vain. Honestly I didn't think any of them needed it and was somewhat sad to know that their unique looks would be diminished.

Recently I was flipping throuh a book of wedding photos by a local photographer in my city. He had wedding pics of one of those girls. She looked stunning! That was the day I decided I was really ready to take this idea to the next level. I thought, that she still looks like her, just better, and I could too.

Two years ago I decided to start this process, but chickened out before the surgery date. Now another year has passed and I really wish I would have done it then. So I don't want to look back in another year and think, I should have done it 2 years ago. Now is the time and I am excited, scared, nervous, and hopeful all at the same time.
I have told all my family, friends and some co-workers. mostly the responce has been.. "well, if it will make you happy and feel better about yourself , then do it". Some have warned me about the problems my sister had when she had her nose done. She had to have it corrected twice and was left with a scar on the top of her nose. Others said, "I don't think you need it." I appreciate everyones responce, good or bad.